8th journal

Chapter 11

Today, I was really angry. I was mad when Mrs. Dubose said bad thing to me. I cut the entire top of camellia. At that moment, I had forgotten the entire things, such as Mrs. Dubose’s gun. At night, Scout said I was a crazy man at that moment which she has never seen. She also get confuse about why I break the bounds of “you just be A gentleman.”

I think the reason why I get angry is that it was the first time I heard the bad thing about Atticus defending about Tom from adults. On the other hand, I heard too many dirty things about the defending for black person, which make nervousness and angriness fill into my mind. What Mrs. Dubose said is just like a blasting fuse.

At night, Atticus knows everything. He gets the baton from Mrs. Dubose front yard. He just asked me that if I am responsible for the events happened to Mrs. Dubose’s yard. He was not angry for that I get angry about what my classmates said, but he said it is inexcusable to do such the bad thing to an old and sick lady. He asked me to go back to Mrs. Dubose’s house and have a conversation with Mrs. Dubose.

I obey the advice that Atticus comes up with, so I went to her house and helped her clean up the yard. In fact, I don’t want to say sorry. When I go back to home and told everything to him, he asked me to get on with Mrs. Dubose with sincere. Mrs. Dubose also asked me to read book for her, and Atticus said I am ought to do it.

Should I read the book for Mrs. Dubose? I am not sure it must be a pleasant experience.